ON....RAMBLINGS

i had lunch with a few people from work whom i rarely have the chance to meet or talk or even hangout with...most of the time when we meet, it is usually us exchanging small talks when we bumped into each other along the corridor or in the ladies.

so as we were having our lunch, we talked and the conversation moved from one topic to another and it made me realise that people aren't who they seemed to be. usually we are quick to judge and be judgmental (isn't that the same????...eheheheheh) of people that we don't know or because others have things to say about those people. i abstain from judging people especially from first impression, then again i do not have opinion about anybody until they deserve one anyway.

i realise that at times we share similar sentiments about our family. about how our parents can be so clueless of who their children really are coz to them, what they see is what they get. but does it mean that we as children are world's biggest hypocrites for deceiving our parents? how much of truth do children need to reveal to their parents, on their personality, emotions and everything else under the sun? is there are requirement for such disclosure? whatever happened to the saying...what they don't know, can't hurt them?

in making choices, we would end up being in dillema. they say the truth will set you free, but somehow or rather you feel compelled of making decisions that suits others' expectations. is there a time limit of when you stop living live for others and start living life as you want it to be? talk is cheap and it is always easier said than done.

people can always say that you are such a dearie or that they love you or that you are everything to them...then again where are these people when you need them the most? at that very second, minute, hour in your life when you need that very person suddenly she/he is not there to hold your hands, to suport you emotionally, to listen to your fears and thoughts. when this happens, is it the end of that precious relationship? 

there was once somebody whom i instantaneously got attached to for reasons that i couldn't explain myself, at that time until a moment later, that person was everything to me and i am confident to say that the feeling was mutual. words were exchanged to comfort one another but somehow or rather, that magical moment vanished as fast as it begun. it was only then i understood the true meaning of instant attraction but only for it to hurt me at a later time.

sometimes as much as you remind yourself to be careful and not lose your barrings, you just slipped!!! it wasn't planned but you just slipped...and when that happens, it hurts so bad... so bad that even when you thought you were soooo over the matter, you only end up crying and being miserable when you stopped loving.....

life...it is sure like a box of chocolates...full of surprises....tears, sadness, laughters and happiness....it all comes in the same box...you can pick what you think is the best flavour but it might not be the best...i hope i don't screw my life for things and people who are not worthy of it...it is time for me to live my life, as i want it....!!!!