If there is ever anything that i could do... It would be me standing next to you... So that you can lean on me anytime you need to...

At this moment, being away from you... doesn't hurt that much. Of course i think of you and i miss you... but it is more bearable nowadays. I tease you, I pick on you... only because my insecurities have the better of me...

I tell myself not to let myself go too much for you. But you have your ways to make me fall for you and you don't even realise it... then again maybe you do know why you are doing this... I could be the foolish one...

Every second... every minute... every hour and every day that we spent together... You make me fall for you... My being now is the result of your creation and moulding... this is a scary bit that is beyond my comprehension...

I am scared for you are totally aware of the game being played now and I am an amateur... 

I am scared for you are totally in control and I let you control me...

I am scared for you make me this way... with your sparkling eyes... gentle voice... soft touches... 

I am possessed by you...

I am scared because this is a game i know too well and lose all the time...

You don't complete me

You don't have me

You don't own me

You don't own me

Yet... I find that my every movement is determine by you... Is based to your likings and I am scared...

For this is a story with no sweet ending... for you control my being... 

I am scared...

So much to say... so much has happened since i last wrote here...

I am glad that i have moved on... that your shadow no longer haunt me like it used to... that i could hear your name mentioned and feel nothing about it... It doesn't hurt any more... and I thank God for releasing me from you...

But i will not lie... I do think of you sometimes... but it is important to note that thinking of you doesn't hurt me anymore... I feel so deliberated...

Those times that passed by... they have stories to tell, secrets to keep and memories to be passed on... and I will carry them with me for eternity...

I now realised that forever is not as long as it seems... that togetherness is an objective played by mind... For what is important is to know that you can't fight alone coz it's a lonely battle... you can pray hard, do your utmost and hope for the best... Life is full of magical mysteries and i hope one day... you will discover the wonders that I am talking about...

Today, at this very moment, I want you to know that i have moved on... I am still alone... but i have stopped hurting and I have moved on...

Today, at this very moment, I want to thank you for being part of my life journey... Thank you for the lessons taught...