Came across this when i was going thru some wordings... mmm... how true... like how long can you actually restraint yourself from something so real yet so far from your grasp? how do you deal with it?

It's like if you... if you deny yourself something long enough... for whatever self-imposed reason, you know, the moment you are faced with any real external imposition you're going to voluntarily want to do the thing that you were trying so hard not to do... B

You think I am blessed and that my life is a fairytale.... You clearly do not know me nor my stories. Don't envy me but do know that i was made for you...

I'm reproducing some of my tweets on you. Don't ask me why... this is a journey that may take some time before it materializes, it may not happen anyway but i want to take it one day at a time. to figure out whether it's worthy or a waste of my emotions and being. i tried reading you but i guess you meant it when you said you want to put me under your thumb and i wonder why i allow myself to be manipulated by you. this is more of me being stupid, being a hopeless romantic thinking that i'd rather be miserable with you than without you.... mmmm.... only time will tell....

When you dream of fairy tales, be prepared to dragged into reality. It'll hurt you so bad that you'd suffocate & die a slow, painful death

At night before I close my eyes, I'll empty my heart. Only for it to be filled with your images, me in your arms & you not letting me go mmm

You want the moon yet I could only afford the stars... ;)

Funny how the pain and the pleasure are the same... In this crazy world, knowing the competitors, do I even stand a chance?

It feels too good and I want it too bad... The more it is real, the more it is right... I never dreamt of this, never ever before...

Life is a dangerous game that many who played, have been defeated. Survival is a challenge that not many are privilleged to experience...

It goes like this...


My dearest,

There is a rose in my heart for you and it is only for you. For i have never given a rose away before nor have i ever received it.

There is a rose for you, my beloved. Yet i shall not put it in your hands...

The rose is here deep in my heart, where touches my soul. it is only for you and you have to come and get it... earn it and it shall be yours.

for i may be a sentimental, gullible and foolish romantic but your need to earn the rose and it shall be yours and i shall be yours forever and ever...

Yours truly...

If I got on my knees and I pleaded with you,
Not to go but to stay in my arms,
Would you walk out the door,
Like you did once before?
This time,
Be different,
Please stay,
don't go.

If I call out your name like a prayer,
Would you leave me alone with my tears?
Knowing I need you so,
Would you still turn and go?
This time,
Be different,
Please stay
don't go
Please stay

I loved you before I even knew your name,
And I wanted to give you my heart,
But then you came back after leaving me one time,
I knew that the heartache would start

If I called out your name like a song,
That was written for you,
You alone
Would you still hurt my pride?
Oh hey, how I cried
This time,
Be different,
Please stay
Please stay, don't go
Please stay, don't go
Please stay.

Duffy - Westlife - Cryin Shames -

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Dalam rindu kubisikan lagi namamu

Belum pernah ku alami keresahan yang begini
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Dalam hatiku bertanya apa kau jua gelisah
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Tidak kuhiraukan

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Ku diburu kebimbangan
Apakah aku berdosa merasa curiga

Salamiah Hassan

i am amazed with the way i look at things and my surroundings of late... it's like having a different set of eyes and seeing things for the first time... it seems more appealing now and more positive...

it feels like i'm discovering new things for the first time in my life and i care less of the root of these discoveries... has my life changed? i do not think so... i've been asked whether i'm high on drugs or whether i am in love... and the answer to both questions is NO...

may be i have finally accept things the way they are and realise that in certain situations... if you can't beat them, join them. but this does not mean that i have given up, i just couldn't care anymore...

because of this, my chest feels lighter, my shoulders are burdenless, my head feels lighter and i feel great... i have never felt this way before and it feels so bloody liberating :)

by the way, london is not a boring place, for london has everything that life has to offer... be there with me and you will re-discover London and shall realise why i am in love with London. others have jumped the ship, it's your turn next ;)