MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA

Disini lahirnya sebuah cinta Yang murni abadi sejati

Disini tersemai cita cita Bercambah menjadi warisan

Andai ku terbuang tak diterima

Andai aku disingkirkan

Kemana harusku bawakan

Kemana harusku semaikan cinta ini

Betapa Dibumi ini ku melangkah

Ke utara selatan timur dan barat Ku jejaki

Aku Bukanlah seorang perwira

Gagah menjunjung senjata

Namun hati rela berjuang Walau dengan cara sendiri

Demi cinta ini

Ku ingin kotakan seribu janji Sepanjang kedewasaan ini

Ku ingin sampaikan pesanan Aku lah penyambung warisan

~ WARISAN; by Sudirman ~


You know how we tend to sing that 'Tanggal 31 Ogos' song each time during our Merdeka day...its a good song but nothing beats this song by the late Sudirman...every time when i hear this song...i tend to fall in love wit Malaysia a little bit more...

Malaysia tanah tumpah darahku...hujan emas di negara orang hujan batu di negara sendiri ...baik lagi di negara sendiri...yes i do love london & venice very much...if i can afford it i wld travel to this 2 countries like my trips to KL-Shah Alam used to be...but i also realise that no matter how far i've gone and where i've been ...Malaysia is wer i want to be...

i know ders soooo much that we can do to amend the situation in Malaysia especially the political and economic senario but i wish we could do it in a more civilised manner...the ruling government needs to buckle up and fulfill their mandates and while the Opposition may think they can do a better job...wouldnt it be wise to work together instead of against each other? as a person i know that i cannot please everybody with their needs and demands but i do my utmost to do my best without thinking of personal gains and agendas...

our leaders should know that the future generation is watching what is happening at the moment and how u do it...there's more to do and yet nothing seems to be right with my Malaysia...we have to be the change we want to see happening...to my fellow mates...fellow Malaysians and to my leaders be it the Govt or the Opposition....ask not what Malaysia can do for you, ask what you can do for Malaysia...

no matter how bad the govt. or opposition may be, wat others are saying about my country, i will never hesitate to shed blood for my Malaysia...i am a Malaysian....i am not a malay or a bumiputra...i am a Muslim...and I am a Malaysian...

MERDEKA!!! MERDEKA!!! MERDEKA!!!

MERDEKA....part 2

I was flipping thru the Malaysian Bar website...taking a breather from my dissertation again... and i came across this article by John Toe...read it and i realized that deep in our hearts of heart, we all want only one thing in common for Malaysia... the very best in its economy, social, politics, justice and fairness...

"While the Tunku was instrumental in forging the expanded federation, Tun Abdul Razak built on it, particularly in the aftermath of the catastrophic May 13, 1969 events before meeting an untimely death.

Tun Hussein Onn will long be remembered as a no-nonsense corruption-buster. Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad will teach us that while it can easily become too cushy after more than two decades as prime minister, it is not anyone's destiny to hold on to high office indefinitely simply because they can.

Many may now regard Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi with disappointment after perhaps unreasonably high expectations, but few will dispute that he, like all his illustrious predecessors, means well in wanting to do what he feels is right for the country"

i know we all hv our differences, our own visions of how Malaysia should be, who should lead us ect... but we must also realize that anywer in the world a country can only have one ruling government and that government be it a democrat or republican, Barisan Nasional or Pakatan Rakyat, Labour or Conservative...we all hv the country and its citizens' best interest at heart...

therefore we should also realize that not all needs can be fulfilled not all wants can be given not all rights can be wronged....not all wrongs can be right....nations around us are at unrest...Sudan, Pakistan, East Timur, Zimbabwe...don't lead my fellow Malaysians there....

You have to be the change you want to see ~ Gandhi

BET YOU DIDN"T KNOW THAT...

As usual i was flipping thru BBC website today and found this article to be interesting ...for me to share wit u...

New facts i got to learn today:
1) That third brake light, the one in the rear window, is called a chimsil.
2) Aircraft oxygen systems have just about 12 minutes worth of reserves

3) There are more than 150 books with the "...before you die" premise in their titles.

read on to know more k..

SOUL SEARCHING ... part 3

I'm in a situation at the moment...circumstances shall remain a mystery but it has made me realize who i am deep inside and also made me question my principles, belief and values...whtr its all worth it or not, whtr i am up for the challenge....whtr i shd juz let go and live my life freely....

i mean its not everyday u get a call from sumone to offer himself as ur punching bag rite??? So here's to you...if u r reading anyway...

"When I am scared, I micro-manage...

When I am uncertain, I over-state...

When I am challenged, I mmmmm belittle and lash-out

And when I love someone, I try put him in a box..."

~ TLW S4 ~

If you know d story...i know it does not connect in any way...different situation & circumstances but d principle is still d same...

P/S: I hv to admit dat at sum point...u r rite...juz dat my ego is as big as everest k....so be patient...

MERDEKA....part 1

This is my pre-merdeka post...this song sumhow makes u feel so patriotic...bersemangat waja & berkobar-kobar...

Inilah barisan kita,
Yang ikhlas berjuang.
Siap sedia berkorban,
Untuk ibu pertiwi!
Sebelum kita berjaya,
Jangan harap kami pulang!
Inilah sumpah pendekar kita,
Menuju medan bakti!
Andai kata kami gugur semua,
Taburlah bunga di atas pusara.
Kami mohon doa,
Malaysia berjaya!
Semboyan telah berbunyi,
Menuju medan bakti!

~ Inilah Barisan Kita ~

This song brought me back to my childhood days wit my bro n my soulmate...how we used to hv our own combat wer my bro was the admiral of a battleship whilst me and my soulmate were the subordinates...or even the times wer my soulmate were d headmistress leaving me n my bro as the pupils...playing catching, rounders, baling selipar, konda-kondi, galah panjang, guli, batu seremban ect with d kids from our neighbourhood which hv grown to become our best frens...

those were the times...wer u were able to go out to play wit ur frens till almost Maghrib and ur parents hv nothing to worry about...times wen u free to do stuffs withput fear of sumone kidnapping ur kids, crazy people on motorcycles snatching ur handbags...wen it was safe for ur 11 yr old son to go to school n tuition with his 7 yr old sisters by bus...or even ur 10 yr old daughters can walk to schoool in wee hrs of mornings.... those were d days...

SOUL SEARCHING ... part 2

i came across this speech by Martin Luther King today at BBC's website....i think this speech is still valid for us to read, apply and ponder on today...and hopefully we realise what it takes to see the changes that we want to see...as an individual, a son/daughter, a father/mother, as a citizen and as human....especially since MERDEKA day is around the corner...

"...in the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds

Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline

We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence

Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force..."

~ I Have A Dream by Martin Luther King on 28.08.1963 ~

TAKING A BREATHER 4...

My previous posts sumhow or rather made me sound depress...no i am not depress...but i am however STRESS!!!!!!!!! trying to finish off my dissertation yet i went blank and m brain dead at the moment so yeah....i am stress...been singing my lungs out for the past couple of hours and was bugging my aunt n uncle in London for sum words of wisdom n inspiration a few times today...

so i tot why not juz hit d sack n attempt to do more tomorrow...i've watched a movie today on this free website and hv downloaded 2 more for me to watch today before i sleep..till then ...i'm yours beaaaabeeeeh!!!

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks and now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing

We're just one big family

And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear and i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm yours

~ I'm Yours; by Jason Marz ~

TAKING A BREATHER 3...

Nasibku dirundung malang

Sederas gelombang Menghempas di pantai

Semalam aku ternoda Dalam sinar cahaya di jendela

Tiada esok lagi Gelap masa depan

Sinar hidup ini tiada erti

Hidupku seperti badai Tak henti gelora Musnahlah segala

Perasaan dan harapan Untuk hari esok tiada lagi

Oh TuhankuKepadaMu ku pohon ampun doa restu

Lindungilah daku yang tidak berdaya Di bumiMu ini

~ Gelombang; by Salamiah Hassan~

OK this is how u shouldnt sing the song despite being d original singer of the song k...it is d ugliest way u cld ever sing the song!!!!! how cld this happened?? urrrrggghhh my ears went 'bungkus' the moment i hear d song...i mean every old timers know how well Salamiah Hassan can sing...in fact she is in a league of her own with d slightest comparison to anyone to date yet... o well i guess this clip shd compensate the previous one...

but i need to find the original version...

TAKING A BREATHER 2...

Tiada kata bagimu Sebagai buluh perindu

Kanda nantimu

Bekalku hanyalah rindu Walau dipisah lautan

Duhai kasihku

Kala senja dikau datang Walaupun hanya lamunan

Aduhai

Sabarlah menanti Ku tak kan lama

Daku pergi demi tugas Walau apapun beratnya

Oh relakan

Pesanmu tak ku lupakan Sumpah setia demi cinta

Oh percayalah

Bila sinar suria menghampiri dikau

Sabarlah dik sayang Ku kembali..

~ Sabar Menanti; by Broery Marantika ~

I like this song too...of course thats the best cover version from annuar zain but it was originally sung by broery marantika...tink it was dedicated to Dato Sharifah Aini...

I love these kind of song becoz its very soothing and i guess Malaysians should be thankful that God sent Dato Ahmad Nawab to us...to entertain us with his beautiful creations...i hope to listening to more songs like this but i dont see it coming with the present musicians that we have...i maybe totally wrong and not know much our music so please malaysian musicians....prove me wrong....

TAKING A BREATHER 1...

Di hati kulakarkan sebuah impian Yang aku namakan harapan

Apabila kutentukan arah serta tujuan Rela kuhadapi cabaran
Jalan ke puncak itu beronak dan berliku Menyukarkan pendakianku

Namun tetap kugagahi hati yang rapuh ini

Demi hasrat yang suci
Aku sangkakan harapan selembut impian Yang menguliti tidur insan

Kiranya kehidupan tidak sedemikian Goyah hatiku oleh kenyataan
Tak harus kuturuti kelemahan diri Tak daya bertahan diuji

Lalu aku mengumpulkan semula kekuatan Berlandaskan keimanan

~ Hati Yang Rapuh; sung by Rahimah Rahim ~

m taking a break away from my dissertation...well only have a quarter way to go ...so why not juz take a breather rite...was flipping tru youtube and found this song...original version by Rahimah Rahim...mind u as d 1st 20 secs of this song is totally unrelated...but u can watch d cover version by Misha Omar here...point to note that Misha sang d song wrongly with a twist of her own...so u need to hear both version of the songs...

Yes, im an emotional bugger and a hopeless romantic so i tend to melt away with this kind of songs.....hehehehehe

ME ON SILENT MODE...

i'm mid way with my dissertation...actually i cld have finished it earlier but i tend to procastinate...but so long as im on d way, it shd be ok...

till then...i've go sum plans and maybe a surprise to annnouce ...will announce once everythg is confirmed...

back to dissertation now...will be on silent mode till d week ends...maybe longer...will post sumthg wen i am up to it...

ON BEING GENEROUS...

Of all the qualities in life i wish i'd have...i wish to be generous at all times...be generous with my time, my life and my money (if only i hv lots to give out to)

but whilst you hv lovely and sincere people to spend time with....i still think that you need to be generous with yourself...i know that i work hard and because of that i do not see the harm to spend lavishly on myself once in a while.

i think that that u need to be generous wit ur time...especially when u hv lotsa people to share it with...at times i am guilty of not be able to spend time with my love ones...i do not know wat i do with my time that sumtimes everybody will complain of me not spending enough time with them. you see there's only one me...well loved and more that i tend to neglect certain people that are vital in my life....most of all i think i am guilty of not spending time wit my old man...and i hope to be able to mend that soon...

most of the time i tend to provide time for others that i fail to realize that my body, mind and soul needs time to recuperate and chill once in a while... so much time is spent on others that suddenly my life will juz shut down...demanding priceless time to re-energize and heal itself...i forget sumtimes that there's only so much that i can do that i will push myself beyond its limitation ... but i only hv one life to live and i wanna make full use of it...

money wise i think that i am doing ok...i could do with more but it has never been an excuse for me to deprive myself to enjoy certain luxury in life nor do i over do it...i think that you need to be generous but at the same time know your limitation so that you don't suffer and others will not take advantage on you...

generosity...you cant give them all but you cant have it all at the same time....be generous bcoz the more you give,,,the more you will get back...

SOUL SEARCHING ... part 1

~ The Quest by Bryn Christoper ~

I’m leaving tonight

Going somewhere deep inside my mind

I close my eyes slowly

Flowin’ away slowly

But I know I’ll be alright

It’s coming stronger to me

And I know someone is out there

Lead the way Lead the way

Show me the answers I need to know

***

What I’m gonna live for What I’m gonna die for

Who you gonna fight for I can’t answer that

***

All my life/love it is It is all my love

All my life/love it is I know it is a life to live lately

From above I hear

I hear the sound of them sinkin’

I feel numb, I’m alive

I know I’m getting closer

***

What I’m gonna live for What I’m gonna die for

Who you gonna fight for I can’t answer that

***

My life has had it’s share of troubles

And now I found a place to go

I’ve said goodbye to all my troubles

’cause now I’ve found my place to go

***

What I’m gonna live for What I’m gonna die for

Who you gonna fight for I can’t answer that

As i am writing, The Quest is playing as d b/ground song... suddenly i have to stop thingking of my dissertation and think back the purpose of me being here...all 9000 miles away from home. Initially i wanted to escape from everythg....responsibilities, predictable life style and expectation from others...i was evrythg that everyone expected of me yet i am nothing at certain level...so i decided to leave my comfort zone and venture into uncertainty and do some soul searching...

Who am i without my family, friends & job? What do i fear the most in life? What do i expect in life? What do i want to do with my life? so many questions goes tru my mind and yet as i come to the end of this chapter in my life, i have discovered nothing & many things about me....

That life do sucks big time but it is not bad at all....life is juz like food...there's so many items on the menu for you to choose and taste one by one before you decide what you like best...things may be too sour, salty, sweet, bitter or juz delicious but you never know wat you like till u taste it...

That i'd rather be a bad person with a golden heart than be a devil in disguise. You need to be cruel, tough and selfish at times so that people dont take advantage of you..that you must think of yourself 1st before anyone else but never use others or put them down juz to make yourself superior....that it is ok to be defensive but dont be too insecured wit your surroundings...

that everyhtg thats good or bad happens for a reason...sooner or later you will know why...good things happen when it is least expected...that you can prepare yourself for everythg yet surprises do happen no matter how prepared you are....that the earth is round yet everythg on it can be sooooo flat....that you shd surround yourself with sumthg new, sumthg old & sumthg borrowed not only during your wedding day but every day...

that sumtimes the greatest journey in your life could be the distance between you & that sumone...that you can have so many good days together ...yet not enough years to spend it...everyday comes with its own surprises...

that at the end of the day you will realize that your family, friends, enemy, job and responsibilties make the person you are...they will be der when you most need them and when you dont need them...happiness is choice that i make everyday when i open my eyes and becoz of that...life is beautiful...

One Of My Favourite Movies...GIGI

Thank heaven for little girls, for little girls get bigger every day!
Thank heaven for little girls, they grow up in the most delightful way!
Those little eyes so helpless and appealing, one day will flash and send you crashin' thru the ceilin'
Thank heaven for little girls thank heaven for them all, no matter where no matter who

For without them, what would little boys do?
Thank heaven... thank heaven...Thank heaven for little girls!

(from the film GIGI & sung by Maurice Chevalier)

My uncle Jim introduced this film to me and my soulmate when i was very young...mostly is becoz my Mak Zah is very concern with the fact that i was very tomboyish and she wanted us to grow up as a young ladies...girlish and all...but from the moment the film started i never took my eyes away from the tv...the film succeeded in catching my mind and attention...since then it has alwiz been my favourite old time movie together with gone with the wind, casablanca, oliver, my fair lady and a few more...btw GIGI won 9 academic awards mind u...

i managed to get hold a dvd copy of the movie recently from amazon.com and i cant wait to watch it again with my nieces as i want them to grow up to be independent and graceful young ladies with views that being born as girls and growing up as young ladies, they should strieve for their dreams and ambitions...and that life is not about getting married at once....but to get married at last...there's more in life that they should venture and experience and i pray for their safety along that journey.

i guess my nephew can watch along as well...so that he learns to value women as equal counterparts rather than as objects or subordinates but i am not worried coz he is a true gentleman despite age....i hope he doesn't break too many heart along the way...

whatever they decide to do in the future, i am sure that my sister and brother will be there to guide them along their journeys and so will i, hopefully....

Gigi . . . am I a fool without a mind Or have I merely been to blind to realize?

Oh gigi . . . why youve been growin up Before my very eyes!

Gigi . . . youre not at all the funny Awkward little girl I knew

Oh no, overnight theres been a breathless Change in you!

Gigi . . . why you were tremblin on the brink Was I out yonder somewh ere blinkin at a star?

Oh gigi . . . have I been standin up to close Or back too far?

When did your sparkle turn to fire And your warmth become desire?

Oh, what miracle Has made you the way you are?

Oh gigi . . . have I been standin up to close Or back too far?

When did your sparkle turn to fire And your warmth become desire?

Oh, what miracle Has made you the way you are?

(from the film GIGI & sung by Louis Jordan)

And after all said above...i am still a romantic sucker when Gigi said..."Gaston, i've been thinking...i'd rather be miserable with you than without you..." aaaaahhhhhhh....so sweet...:)

QUOTE ON...TIME

Demi Masa Sesungguhnya Manusia Kerugian

Ingat 5 Perkara Sebelum 5 Perkara...

Sterling....stop procastinating coz u are running out of time...!!!

QUOTE ON...NATIONAL INTEREST

i was typing out my dissertation and came across this....it justifies why at the end of the day, either as an individual or a state, we are all REALIST...we think only of ourselves and what benefits us before we think of others...ask yourself...isn't this is what we are?

Governments Need To Act According To The Interest Of Their Own People Even If This Conflicts With The Interest Of Other States And People...Peter Hough

FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN...

im currently in the midst of drafting my thesis...yeah been procastinating so long and now i am all panicky (is der such a word? how do u spell it?) k...

thing is ...i am not a procastinator...but i know that i function & deliver my best when i am under pressure...but i am not fond of the pimples on my forehead....hope i hv enough time to get rid of it & recover in time for my graduation & when i go home...

so wat m i tryg to say here?...i think my tots hv flown away...guess i hv to catch dat tots again b4 i can write...m mentally challenged at d moment...hv u ever been in this situation where suddenly ur mind goes blank?

A SOFT PLACE TO FALL...

The other party told me not to be too defensive....sh** does happen but not all the time...so i shd relax a little....

Thing is ...as daring and aggressive as i may seem....im a nervous wreck actually...during my LLB days, friends often wonder how can i act chill when everyone is nervous to face the exams...what they dont know is that i do get nervous during exam but i juz dont show it...coz when i enter the exam hall i am fully aware of the consequences...

but when matters of the heart comes into Q...i usually run as far as possible....so now he is saying that i should chill, relax & go with d flow...be defensive but not too defensive as life is not a fairy tale...i told him that it's my life & i want it to be a fairy tale...if you cant make that possible...i will not let my defence wall down...

i look before i jump....but he told me to jump while looking...is that possible..? All i want is a soft place to fall...

TO LOOK B4 I JUMP...

i love challenges...i liked to be challenged becoz the more challenged i am the more determined i'll be...but sumtimes i fail to overcome certain challenges in life...but it's ok as i am only human and i acknowledge the fact there's only so much that i can do...

sumtimes i create challeges for me to overcome...example being forced to purchase my 1st apartment on the very weekend when i started work at the age of 24...put more risks in life by taking another financial obligation (which sum may say is totally unnecessary...but what's d worst that can happen?) and drop everythg to pursue my MA education (which sum also say is totally unnecessary as well) ...d problem with me is...the more u tell me to do O not to do sumthg the more i tend to do the very opposite of your instructions!!!

i admit that i am stubborn and can be quite rebellious (actually quite is an understatement)...but no matter what i decide to do in life and no matter how challenging the obtacles that i put in front of me...and not matter whtr i fail O succeed in over-coming such challenges....i never ever jump without looking....becoz if i do jump with without looking...i always end in deep sh**...and put myself into trouble...though technically i do not end up doing anythg illegal....i am a law abiding citizen (most of the time la...)

last week however...i jumped without looking n i panicked....though what happened shall not be revealed here...i found myself to panic like a headless chicken and spent half of the day running around for help!!!! (but i didnt really need help anyway...i juz panicked).... and becoz of that i decided to run away for the weekend to clear my head....(btw, i did hv sumthg to do in london...)

suddenly i realized that most of the time...i tend to be in control of what i want and what i do... the reason is becoz i want & need to safeguard myself, interest & life... i think alot...n people always say that i take things seriously whilst i am suppose to chill....

u may think that i am talking rubbish...but believe that at the end of this i realised that i tend to run away whenever things get out of control ... is that good o bad? now dat i am back...i think i am prepared to face the challenge again but i do not know what the other party has got to say about me being a coward... well...im not perfect...

P/S: will try not to run away again...no promises though..

QUOTE ON...GREATNESS

Be Not Afraid Of Greatness

Some Are Born Great

Some Achieve Greatness

And Some Have Greatness Thrust Upon Them

~ Shakespeare ~

OF BEING CLEAN & TIDY...

I live in Pillar Box...it's part of the Uni's postgrad accommodation and it is rite in the city... it is so in the city that the moment i open the hall door and walk 5 steps...i have Starbucks, Topshop & Marks n Spencers, among others, in front of me....that's how in the city i am....

So we have been warned that today the Hall Officer will conduct inspection to check for any damages/default as I am to move out by 6th Sept...i got the shock of my life when i saw 3 guys & 2 ladies at my door-step to conduct the inspection....so they searched my room and the 1st comment everybody said wuz that my room is the cleanest for the whole accommodation!!! Imagine dat.....all 5 of them agreed on it!!!

The guys seem to think that i dont cook but i told them that i made breakfast this morning.... according to them my kitchen is spot-less...man i am so damn proud to hear this....they ended the 3 minute tour by saying that they will come back at the end of the day with those people who have dirty & badly maintained room....

The thing is i am not normally a tidy person...i'm clean but i can be messy at times....at home i hardly do any house-work coz i have my mom n d maid to clean my room & do my laundry... i dont even do my own bed or wash my plates....Yes, i'm not into house cleaning in my own house...

But i notice that i have this pattern that goes on when i am on my own or when people around me are messy...it happened when i was doing my undergrad...rented a 3 bedroom apartment wer i took the master bedroom that came with an attached bath...i was there for almost 4 years and i cant remember any of my housemates using my bath or even like really chill in my bed room...according to them it's too tidy and it feels like they are in an office rather than in a bedroom...no one sits on my bed as it is only to be slept on at nite time and they wont use my bath as i will alwiz dry it after each shower coz i dont like using a wet bath... Yes, i am a freak when i am on my own...

but sumhow or rather my bed in ampang is always messy...& the bath is always wet especally during weekends & i hv no qualms bout it...it makes me feel like normal human...messy bed & wet bath...but i make sure that my clothes are ironed & arranged via colour co-ordination in the wardrobes and i wonder what's wit d split personality?

Even my friends in Coventry commented the same...my room is very neat and even when i complain that my room is messy it is never messy according to them...& they were certainly not surprised with the remarks made by the Hall Officers....

i still maintain the same routine...after every shower...mop the floor so dat it doesnt end up wet the whole day...make ur bed d moment u wake up n try not to lay on it until its bedtime....wash every dishes after u used them and not to stack everythg in the sink...clean the hob, hud & microwave each time after using it with stain remover... coz if u dont it will stained and will be hard to remove....vacuum the room every now & then...do laundry every 10 days & fold everythg d moment u finished drying them - place them in d cupboard soon after folding them...throw ur wet rubbish everyday & the dry rubbish every week....becoz of this regime, my room is always neat & clean...most of the time...one thing that i do not do is ironing...& i am not ashamed to wear wrinkle clothes coz i am not perfect...

The guys also noticed that most of the stuffs in my fridge is stored neatly in separate containers & made a remark on it...it's too clean even for a girl...well sir i may come from a developing country but i am more developed & cultured than u may ever realize....

Hooray for me!!!!

P/S: Does this mean that i can attempt to seek partial refund for my rent? hehehehehe...

QUOTES ON...LOVE & LIFE

For One Humanbeing To Love Another

That Is Perhaps The Most Difficult Of All Our Tasks

The Ultimate, The Last Test & Proof

The Work For Which All Other Is But Prepration...

The Purpose Of Life Is To Be Defeated

By Greater & Greater Things....

~ Rainer Maria Rilke ~

HAPPY 36TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO MAMA & PAPA...

WOW!!! 36 years of being married ... n they have known each other more than 40 years...that's a lifetime for sum of us ...living with my parents and seeing how they treat each other sumtimes makes me wonder whtr marriage can get any better...my parents are not perfect but they are the best and i think my mom supports my dad in every-way that she can thruout the marriage...

my parents have gone tru alot together...my mom especially...she left her family in Singapore to find a job in KL and it was bcoz of the job, she found my dad!!! as corny as it sounds, my mom was working as an operator with Telekom in late 1960s and among d things that she had to do was to connect calls from one place to another...one day my dad called n asked that his call is connected from KL to Penang....after making d same call for a few days/weeks? ...my dad asked my mom out and my mom said yes......yes, it's sooooooooo corny coz i dont think i wld have accepted such invitation... but i guess things were simpler then compared to now (no wonder i'm still single!!!).

My parents got married on 04.08.1972 in Malacca where my mom originated and my dad held his reception in Dewan Dato'Keramat in KL despite coming from Penang...few months after that they flew to London together where my mom worked and my dad studied. My parents returned to KL in late 1975 a few months after my brother was born while my sister & i were born 4 years after my bro.

My dad works hard and my mom seldom complains...despite the fact that my dad remarried when i was hardly 6 years old, my mom still hardly complained...she did what she had to do as a wife and a mother...bring us up, send us to school, tuition and watever xtra-curiculum activities that my bro, sis & i may have. she made sure we are taken care of without bothering my dad unless she has too coz she understood his work...building up your own business is not an easy task which i only learn to understand and appreciate when i started working few years back...

My mom had never made us hate or dislike my dad for having remarried again and have 3 other sons...in fact she actually made us take a family trip together when i was about 16 yrs (w/out d other wife of course...that'll be tooo much for me to handle) juz becoz my dad suggested it. till today if i ever were to call my dad o visit him at the other house, it is only becoz my mom made me to....i'm d difficult one in the famiy i have to admit that...unlike my brother who is the dutiful son...

I think my parents biggest challenge was not the fact that my dad remarried again and my mom have to accept and live with that fact for the rest for her life....it was not even the fact that my dad was a bankrupt for a few years and they had to struggle to bring up 2 family and rebuild the business again... my parents biggest challenge came when their daughter, my twin sister passed away on 03.06.1997....the challenge was not only to cope with Hafizah's unexpected death but also to keep the family together despite the fact that my brother was in the States and me in college....

We hardly spoke of Hafizah...i think its because no matter how close we are and how we have over-come the distance & barrier that might have been there when Hafizah passed away...it is still very painful for us to talk about her...i know it has been more than 10 years since she's been gone but which parent can bear the toughest task of burying your own child?

My brother and i work hard to ensure that we make our parents happy and proud of us...we work hard to give them what they needed the most...our time and love...nothing less nothing more and we will keep on doing that...

So on this 36th years of marriage there is nothing that i would do to change my relationship with my mom coz i think we are doing good...but i would love to mend watever gap there maybe between me and my old man... as a child i expected alot form him when when he doesnt deliver, i resent him for it...my dad tries his best to mend things with me but my ego is as big as Everest and i need to do sumthg about it so that i dont regret about it later..

To Mama & Papa...Happy 36th Anniversary...my hope and prayers are for more good years to come for us and that Allah bless both of you and our family with happiness, laughter, excellent health, good fortune and wealth...36 years together and we are so imperfectly perfect and i love you for that...thank you very much for all that you have done and given me....i do love you!

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED...

So ...Tash came for dinner & a sleepover on Friday wit a mission...i'm glad that she enjoyed my Malaysian cooking of chicken cooked in spicy tomato sauce (Ayam masak merah laaa).... the thing is ...i love cooking...i know dat my family a some of my friends love my cookings but they always ask for the same menu! now dat would only mean dat im good when i cook specific menus which my family and friends have grown to like....so when i try to cook sumthg new...i freak out n decided not to cook dat new menu la...

so tash and i had a great time on friday nite talking n talking n talking...being born in the same year n month with birth-date of one day apart....we both seems to have alot in common! it felt like me having my soul-mate back becoz of all the similarities that we share only that this soul-mate will not follow me back to KL in November...n dat only ends up opening the old wound wider....

tash n i spend alot of time together...we watch movies every friday, but we juz saw X-File d movie yesterday n it was a good movie...certainly not d typical X-file series n more realistic... we go to d library together...n yes every friday nite is our girls nite only wer we start-off wit a movie n ends it wit dinner n supper...

so will i miss my friends in coventry like musa, tash, chris, mario etc...definately...we may only have known each other for a short time but mature relationships....its different....it's hard to formed but once u've built it...it lasts forever...i hope so....

ME AGAINST THE MUSIC

I am recuperating today...Yes, the problem with age is that you cant party as if you are 20 yrs old...had a long n great nite with my best buddy, Tasha last nite...she wuz on a mission but sumhow mission wuz not accomplished ...not even half way there!

Am i to say that i am good despite lack of training or experience? Or is Tash bad for not being more aggressive player? Tash is setting up another mission 2moro nite...only this time at my place and i have a feeling that she will not stop till we both drop...there goes my weekend i guess...one way or another these missions are making me hungry....

To Tash...good luck with ur mission...may u succeed this time and believe me that i do hope for you to succeed coz girl...i am more nervous of tomorrow than yesterday despite the fact that mission will take place at my place...do you think it is wise to invite "the enemy" to your territory with hope that they get toppled instead of you being knocked down?

Here's hoping for the best whilst preparing for the worst...this is me against the music :)

P/S: I'll leave it to your creative interpretation & imagination of what was the mission yesterday & 2moro!