i love challenges...i liked to be challenged becoz the more challenged i am the more determined i'll be...but sumtimes i fail to overcome certain challenges in life...but it's ok as i am only human and i acknowledge the fact there's only so much that i can do...
sumtimes i create challeges for me to overcome...example being forced to purchase my 1st apartment on the very weekend when i started work at the age of 24...put more risks in life by taking another financial obligation (which sum may say is totally unnecessary...but what's d worst that can happen?) and drop everythg to pursue my MA education (which sum also say is totally unnecessary as well) ...d problem with me is...the more u tell me to do O not to do sumthg the more i tend to do the very opposite of your instructions!!!
i admit that i am stubborn and can be quite rebellious (actually quite is an understatement)...but no matter what i decide to do in life and no matter how challenging the obtacles that i put in front of me...and not matter whtr i fail O succeed in over-coming such challenges....i never ever jump without looking....becoz if i do jump with without looking...i always end in deep sh**...and put myself into trouble...though technically i do not end up doing anythg illegal....i am a law abiding citizen (most of the time la...)
last week however...i jumped without looking n i panicked....though what happened shall not be revealed here...i found myself to panic like a headless chicken and spent half of the day running around for help!!!! (but i didnt really need help anyway...i juz panicked).... and becoz of that i decided to run away for the weekend to clear my head....(btw, i did hv sumthg to do in london...)
suddenly i realized that most of the time...i tend to be in control of what i want and what i do... the reason is becoz i want & need to safeguard myself, interest & life... i think alot...n people always say that i take things seriously whilst i am suppose to chill....
u may think that i am talking rubbish...but believe that at the end of this i realised that i tend to run away whenever things get out of control ... is that good o bad? now dat i am back...i think i am prepared to face the challenge again but i do not know what the other party has got to say about me being a coward... well...im not perfect...
P/S: will try not to run away again...no promises though..
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