i am amazed with the way i look at things and my surroundings of late... it's like having a different set of eyes and seeing things for the first time... it seems more appealing now and more positive...

it feels like i'm discovering new things for the first time in my life and i care less of the root of these discoveries... has my life changed? i do not think so... i've been asked whether i'm high on drugs or whether i am in love... and the answer to both questions is NO...

may be i have finally accept things the way they are and realise that in certain situations... if you can't beat them, join them. but this does not mean that i have given up, i just couldn't care anymore...

because of this, my chest feels lighter, my shoulders are burdenless, my head feels lighter and i feel great... i have never felt this way before and it feels so bloody liberating :)

by the way, london is not a boring place, for london has everything that life has to offer... be there with me and you will re-discover London and shall realise why i am in love with London. others have jumped the ship, it's your turn next ;)

i've been very.... ok let's put it... extremely happy for the past couple of weeks... i have yet to identify the source/root of my happiness... i am for sure not in love... i would definately know if i am... but i am all smirky, smilling, laughing, floating around, positive all the time... that people around me are asking and talking about it.. yet i do not know how to answer all their questions...

then again i feel light and sooo liberated, so at ease and peaceful deep inside me :) i know that i am happy... whether it is because of your presence in my life, i seriously think that it is irrelevant, for we are not together... we just know each other. nothing more...

mmm... i don't know what to make of it... for i'm all happy and positive without a reason... but seriously, do i need a reason or a love life in order to be happy? then again, if there's no reason... am i losing my sanity here?

after much thoughts and serious thinking, i have decided to be extraordinary... i want to be superb and not normal or worst, mediocre... i have learnt to forgive myself and love myself... for i have come to terms that i am a complete person on my own and that the people around me should be happy with me as well.. i have learnt to accept things as they are and will no longer have expectations from others...

for i am my only servant and no one else's... i will love, will be broken hearted, will succeed and fail in the future, but i will always accept the victories and obstacles humbly... this, i promise myself.

Finally... there is a rose in my heart for you, earn it and you shall have it... other than that, happiness is a choice... and i choose to be happy... with or without your presence...

i find myself drawn to you yet, i wonder whether you feel the same way too
life is short, they say... yet it is a journey full of discoveries
and you are a discovery...

i look forward for tomorrow to come
for each day i am smittened by you especially
the way you twists your words
how it tickles my soul

i can feel forever and it scares me at times...
i find me contradicting myself
trying hard to hold on to my principles and values
yet, i do not want to let go nor lose you

strange, isn't it
how i am drawn to the impossible
how i am metling bit by bit
how i try to pull myself away, only to fail

how i look forward to tomorrow and everyday...

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