i've been very.... ok let's put it... extremely happy for the past couple of weeks... i have yet to identify the source/root of my happiness... i am for sure not in love... i would definately know if i am... but i am all smirky, smilling, laughing, floating around, positive all the time... that people around me are asking and talking about it.. yet i do not know how to answer all their questions...

then again i feel light and sooo liberated, so at ease and peaceful deep inside me :) i know that i am happy... whether it is because of your presence in my life, i seriously think that it is irrelevant, for we are not together... we just know each other. nothing more...

mmm... i don't know what to make of it... for i'm all happy and positive without a reason... but seriously, do i need a reason or a love life in order to be happy? then again, if there's no reason... am i losing my sanity here?

after much thoughts and serious thinking, i have decided to be extraordinary... i want to be superb and not normal or worst, mediocre... i have learnt to forgive myself and love myself... for i have come to terms that i am a complete person on my own and that the people around me should be happy with me as well.. i have learnt to accept things as they are and will no longer have expectations from others...

for i am my only servant and no one else's... i will love, will be broken hearted, will succeed and fail in the future, but i will always accept the victories and obstacles humbly... this, i promise myself.

Finally... there is a rose in my heart for you, earn it and you shall have it... other than that, happiness is a choice... and i choose to be happy... with or without your presence...