"HONEY!!!!!!!...sunday is dull...wonder why???......oh yeah..U r not thr with me!"

you sent this to me...juz went i try to distant myself from you...i want it all or nothing at all...but i know it's not sumthing that i cant demand nor u can give...that is why it hurts so bad...

what am i to do? for each time i see you i get hurt sooo bad...i'm crying inside...but i put a brave face in front of everybody.... and yes...my days seem dull without you...but i shall not let that control my life...for i am hurting without you knowing it....

hahahaa!!! if only....