great... just after reading my post, u sent me a text to call u... and i stupidly did... i don't know why i allow myself to be under your spell... why do i allow myself to get lost in your gravity... it's like you have this pulling factor that makes it so easy for me to go back to you...

how is it possible for one to allow itself to be treated this way? I'm kept without chain and touched without contact...how is this even possible? and it doesn't take take much effort for you to lure me back into your arms... mmm this is crazy... because at the end of the day, iWILL be the one hurting. I will be the one to mend my broken heart and soul... while you get the best of both worlds...

I can't stop myself from hurting

Because hurting means I'm alive

I can't make myself forget

cause forgetting means losing you

oh dear... I'm such a masochist kan :)

I can still remember the taste of your lips

Everytime it touched me, it touched my soul

And the playfulness of you tongue

Made me melt in your arms

I can still remember your touch

The cleverness of your long fingers

How its pleasures set me on blazing fire

The satisfactions are beyond words

I can still remember your smell

It still lingers in my heart and mind

Everytime i think of it, i get high

So high that it ends in pleasure

I can still remember your physique

How we used to sync in one rhythm

I want to touch you, taste you, feel you, smell you

Longing for you is hurting me so bad...

26.05.2011

Today i feel that sense of loneliness

Longing for your presence and touch

Yet you are so far away

and i yearn for you to be by my side

I once told you... forever together
That whatever happens, wherever I'll be

I'm yours and no one else's

Yet.. you could never say the same to me

The sweet memories of how it all started

Made me smile yet tears are falling

For love may lasts forever

Yet it does not bring us together

We can only have all or nothing at all

I refuse to settle for anything less

Yet you have your limitations and expectations

and i have to endure it... unwillingly

Forever together... sounds very simple

We can be together but not forever

We can have forever but not be together

It hurts... It hurts so bad...

26.05.2011